Poker Love

Hey guys, sorry for the lack of updates. I was in the States for a few days and was too busy to make a post. Anyways a lot has happened since my last post.

The day after I decided to stop chasing sne I started playing sick poker, possibly my best poker ever. I lost a little the next day but then had a sick sick day where I made 7.5k which felt really good. The next day me and my roommate decided to swap 30% in the 215$ hyper on stars and after being down to 1 ante at one point, I managed to finish second for 16k which was really awesome. So everything seemed good.

The next day I played a long session, I ran 9k below allin ev and lost 7.5k. That was one week ago, and since then I haven't had one winning session! During the week I decided to start playing on ftp as well. I don't have rakeback but the deepstack sngs and superturbos seem to be pretty profitable even without rakeback so I figured I'd try the 200$ supers and 500$ deepstacks. Anyways a mix of getting coolered and losing allins brings this graph for the past week on ftp:


















Pokerstars has been very cruel as well. A mix of coolers and bad beats brings me this weekly graph for both sites combined:
















I'm down overall in allin ev, but coolers played a big part in this, as well as bad play as it is very difficult for anyone that isn't extremely strong mentally to play well in this situation, and unfortunately I am not strong in this aspect of the game so I have definitively not played my best.

I am unsure of what my next step should be. I am loving life outside of poker, but am realizing Malta isn't the best place to come to be a sick grinder. It's just too awesome. Hopefully I can start running good soon so I can keep enjoying this life.

Anyways, I hope you guys run better then me. This may be my biggest downswing ever and the fact that it has happened over one week where I haven't even played much is extremely frustrating but I trust things will get better soon.

Gl at the tables!

TYF